If my life had a theme song right now this would be it…
I’m so confused
I know I heard You loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of Your plan
When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words
Thy will be done
If you’ve followed our entrepreneurial story at all you know that Josh and I own a CrossFit gym. It wasn’t really a part of our plan when we moved to this town four years ago. But God made it very clear through a series of events that it was meant for us to endeavor. The first several months were so fun and exciting! (the honeymoon phase) Even though it was hard, we were energized and knew that everything would work out because God told us to do this so of course everything would just fall into place.
But then the long days, early mornings, endless filled weekends combined with relentless setbacks and disappointment kicked in. Not to mention the precious little life we brought into the world during this same time. Things got really, really hard. Don’t get me wrong, there were so many rewarding moments along the way. But mostly it’s just been wearying.
Lately there’s been a pull on our hearts that we’ve been ignoring. Hoping it would go away. Perhaps we were misreading the signs. But we know what we’ve been asked to do…
“I am surrendering my dream to you, Dream Giver. I’ve decided that it’s you that I can’t go without.” -The Dream Giver by Bruce Wilkinson
We’ve decided to buy a smaller, cheaper house. If we hope to keep our dream going, we’ve got to give this up. And so we’ve decided it’s worth it.