My self-discipline has always been a blessing and a curse. My parents taught me the importance of following through on commitments and while I absolutely hated it when I was 10 years old taking piano lessons, I truly appreciate it now.
Unless something terrible happens, I know I will follow through on this marathon goal. Even though in the middle of those long runs I always start wondering why I am putting myself through the torture, I always remember when I finish the run.
Talking with my husband a few weeks ago, I mentioned that I wouldn’t be putting a time pressure on myself for the marathon. Simply finishing was my goal. He thought that was outrageous. He believes I need a time goal to push me, that almost anyone can walk a marathon.
I am still torn. My driven, competitive nature compels me to push for a time goal. However, I believe that is how I hurt my foot during the Austin 10/20. I set a time goal and even though I started feeling pain, I wouldn’t stop because I couldn’t stand the thought of missing my time goal. Also, since I have been tracking my runs with Map My Run, I feel PRESSURE! The enjoyment I used to feel during running is slowly disappearing.
Sunday I went for a run without my garmin or my phone. I have no idea how long it took me. It was the most enjoyable run I’ve had in several weeks.
But I know that I just can’t help my little self! I will set a time goal for this marathon and it will help me push through and not give up. I just need to be more cognizant of what my limits are and train properly. I do not want to risk injury. And I also need to remember the importance of the “easy runs” every once in a while.
Commit yourself to a dream… Nobody who tries to do something great but fails is a total failure. Why? Because he can always rest assured that he succeeded in life’s most important battle–he defeated the fear of trying.-Robert H. Schuller