I am surrounded by dragonflies. Not literally, but I do love what they represent. It was my mother who introduced me to them. She always had dragonfly things around our home and one day I decided I love them too. So much so, that I got a tattoo of a dragonfly on my wrist to remind me every day of what they symbolize.
The story of the dragonfly:
Once, in a little pond, in the muddy water under the lily pads, there lived a little water beetle in a community of water beetles. They lived a simple and comfortable life in the pond with few disturbances and interruptions. Once in a while, sadness would come to the community when one of their fellow beetles would climb the stem of a lily pad and would never be seen again. They knew when this happened; their friend was dead, gone forever. Then, one day, one little water beetle felt an irresistible urge to climb up that stem. However, he was determined that he would not leave forever. He would come back and tell his friends what he had found at the top. When he reached the top and climbed out of the water onto the surface of the lily pad, he was so tired, and the sun felt so warm, that he decided he must take a nap. As he slept, his body changed and when he woke up, he had turned into a beautiful blue tailed dragonfly with broad wings and a slender body designed for flying. So, fly he did! And, as he soared he saw the beauty of a whole new world and a far superior way of life to what he had never known existed. Then he remembered his beetle friends and how they were thinking by now he was dead. He wanted to go back to tell them, and explain to them that he was now more alive than he had ever been before. His life had been fulfilled rather than ended. But, his new body would not go down into the water. He could not get back to tell his friends the good news. Then he understood that their time would come, when they, too, would know what he now knew. So, he raised his wings and flew off into his joyous new life! -Author Unknown
This story is relevant to many aspects of my life. But especially in my weight loss journey. When I stopped taking the anti-depressants and realized how much weight I gained I was very angry. I was angry for a long time. Mostly at myself for allowing me to gain 50 pounds in 3 months. But eventually I decided to do something about it…to climb the lily pad stem. I opened my eyes to a new way of living. A healthy lifestyle. Before I gained weight, I may have been thin but I wasn’t healthy. Through lots of running therapy and positive thinking I am finally at a place where I not only accept but appreciate that time in my life. I would not be who I am today without it.
I think Eminem puts it best in his song Not Afraid.
“Yeah, it’s been a ride
I guess I had to, go to that place, to get to this one
Now some of you, might still be in that place
If you’re trying to get out, just follow me
I’ll get you there”