Not being able to run the last 2 weeks has been killing me!! I definitely feel it has been a test of my will power. The will to not run and also the will to not feel guilty or lazy. It is a mind game. Some days were good, most were a constant struggle to remind myself that I was not being lazy. I was hurt and sick. It is ridiculous to feel bad about that! But still, when I looked in my mirror, I felt like my tummy was slowly expanding (even though it wasn’t).
But, I was at my Aunt and Uncle’s house this past weekend. I had been trying to avoid the mirror but I caught a glimpse when I was getting dressed. And I was like, whoa! I’m skinny! It was really weird. I see myself every day but for some reason I still see the person I used to be.
At that moment, I realized I need to start looking at myself through someone else’s mirror. I need to give myself more credit for the things I have accomplished. I think it’s important for us all to remember that we are our own worst critic. Sometimes that is a good thing, but not for me. (my internal critic is just a jerk)
I have endured some difficult situations in my life but none have been so challenging as re-training myself how to think. When a negative thought arises, I try to immediately replace it with a positive one. It was surprising to see how many negative things I was telling myself every day once I started paying attention. I am much better now, but still have a long way to go.
I am just wondering how common it is for people who have lost a lot of weight to struggle with this?
“Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.” -Malcolm Stevenson Forbes